Cherished memory

Today is the first day of my summer vacation.

I spent this morning sorting out my photos in my iphone.

Then I feel like remembering my old memories, 

so I pick up my journal and started reading it.

Am I the only person who gets surprised by reading my own writing?

Sometimes my words remind me of important things.

(I totally forgot how hard I studied.

You know,

 Danger past, God forgotten.)

Anyway, I realized I always cheered myself up by my writing.

Most people want to write in their diary

 when they experience something special, usually feel happy.

In my case, however, I want to keep a diary 

when I feel like I'm in hell.

I'm not pessimistic.

I'm not gonna play a drama queen.

I just try to figure out the bad situation

and write it.

In my favorite movie, Paranoid Park,

there are some nice lines like this:

  

                         

  I have the answer.

If something happened to you,and you couldn't tell anyone

what I would do is I'd write a letter.

To who?

The person you did it to.Like, an apology or whatever.

Or... maybe to someone else,like a separate person.
But the point is,
to get it down and off your chest.

And then, you can stop stressing.
And, what am I supposed to do with the letter... after?
Doesn't matter, like, save it,send it, burn it, you know?
Th... writing it down is the important thing.
So... yeah. I mean, once you get it out
there you'll feel way better.

It's a big relief.
  
You know...
it just feels good to have it all out.
Yeah... maybe.
  But, the trick is... write it to someone you can really talk to,
like someone you're comfortable with.
Not your parents or your teachers or whatever.
 
Write it to a friend.
  
Yeah.
 
Write it to me.




 

My words aren't for my friends, but I just write them to my diary.

I feel comfortable with it.

All I want for Christmas used to be the person 

who always takes my side, 

who always listens to my stories without judging me.

I've never met such people,

so I still write down my feelings.

I don't have enough courage to tell my feelings straightly to people.

However, I'm sure

 every single person is the same way in a small way.

Write it down, before you forget the feelings.

Read again your words.

Revise your life.

It's how to cherish your memory, your life.

"I think unicorns are most fabulous creatures in the world."

-The excerpt  from my diary 2013